Tough Love

I think Noa's been manipulating me with this bedtime nonsense. She knows I don't let her cry, but I think she's taking advantage of it now.
Last night I picked her up a couple different times because she was crying. By the time I got her to bed it was ten. After talking to a few moms I decided I better try not to give in but damn it's so hard :( I came up with a plan so I wouldn't have to hear her cry. Tonight, I followed our normal routine of bottle and dvd, and put her in her crib with her blanket, another bottle, and her movie. Then I went in the bathroom, turned on the radio, and took a hot shower. I wasn't able to hear her cry, but I was hoping she'd be asleep by the time I was finished... and she was. I went in to check on her a couple of hours later and I found her bottle and blanket thrown on the floor ... it completely broke my heart. I know she threw them out in a fit of rage, cried herself to sleep, all without her blanket.
I love my baby so much ... but she is stubborn. I hope tomorrow night is better. Tough love sucks.

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